These criteria to meet before u can smoke

1. Any fight like Sisodia at corporate life
2. Job loss or fired
3. intense fight with wife like in GIANT.
4. Intense scolding from father or relatives.
5. Running about hospitals for any blood relations.


In no other condition can u smoke.

week end passed by

My first week end passed by and with 1 cigg in each day... I am not so haapy with it...Today is monday and I have taken 2 cigg and not come in my bicycle so it is bad... nee dto do something regarding this

i m an addict

I was suffering from a bad throat infection yet i consumed 3 cigarete.....Why i do so...

anyways my sore throat is too bad now.... i could not sleep the whole night
and i am planning to visit the doctor for some cure...I want this day to be last day when i have ever smoken a ciggarette...........I want every one to be proud of my me and my inner strength...I can demand such respect, if i can leave ciggy and give a damn to fucker sisodia ..

I m not happy with my personal performance

1. I smoked today for no reason I should have stopped it.... Please donot do so in near future
2. I have not been able to find how to start with a non JSF page to a JSF page. I need to get it cleared by end of day. Only thing that would be there is the object in user Scope.

4th day still 2 Ciggarette a day

today is not a nice day as I have already spend more than 2 times I feel sick regarding why I did ok i as a policy i have to write why did I smoke. First is when i saw guy on street with out a leg i felt sorry i thought why he ever had to amputate his legs ......2nd one was because Prakash borred me to hell so I smoke I should know how to handle.....

3rd day not bad

Few good things are happening,
1. I have just taken 1 cigg
2. I have a ulser in mouth so would not talk much or eat today.
3. Ihave moved to a place where I can see all and others are believing this is my place.
4. One good thing i can see all others from this place and know who is concentrating on which all areas.

Few Bad things around me:
1. I still have a early morning bleeding of gums but when i put it to hankerchief if would not stain as red but strain it as yellow. and also does not smell like blood.
2. I also have a small giddiness feeling in myself. Specially if I walk.
3. I would be giving today as a day with no food.

Few pending things:
1. I have to have my PET scan done in Chennai and need to understand why was there a period of such high blood pressure and how did the body come out of it and what is really happening inside..........if the doctor have any clue about it.

PLAN Changes and to do:
1. Today is 18th of September tommorow I would be paying my fees, i still feel that the fees are too high as compared to the rewards they provide, however I am left with no option other than doing that doing it like Agarwal did. Remember I would like to have my own IPO so that i can get money from others.
2. We have a meeting on the GCAP probably it is my turn to deliver my stuff. I have to get the things deliver in plan simple application. which would then be mapped with other places. Please ensure that the least is required from others.

2nd Day and going is good

This is the second day for the contineous improvement plan, I am happy with the development I have come to office on cycle and have not smoke or begged for ciggarette today... So going ahead I would like to continue comming in cycle... or take up the gym in office it is really expensive in india we used to get gyms for around 12000 Rs here it is around 30,000 rs annual fees but yes the gyms are clean and have suna and swimming pool and other facility now I donot have cash to pay them if I make any money in stock market then I would be paying the money to after PET.

So what is todays plan, I mean long term my plan is keep writing this and keeping others know what I feel good and bad about and also Ihave few more changes in the lifestyle changes like drinking more than 12 cups of water before I leave for home, and atleast 5 cups of green tea.....
I plan to eat at least 100gms of fruits daly like an apple or two oranges or a slice of watermelon or a slice of papaya... but atleast 100 gms daily.

One more thing that have changed here in office is that I have taken one more corner place in office that is Agarwals place as he has left the organisation.... This place is nice as I could see every one, specially my manager and more important than any one mohan, So from here I keep an eye on every one and quietly keep moving on the path of progress.

Regarding the job plan.... Recently i have been reading few articles from my favorite author named robert kiyoski http://au.blogs.yahoo.com/richricher/61/thinking-big-is-the-best-plan in this article he said one thing "The person with the better plan wins" this is like a pinch to me I realised that i never thought about the same...So i thouht of having a plan... My plan includes to have close tie but with a watch on other So akash place is much better and slowly keep moving up..

My strength is my technology
My weak ness is my personal contacts in the organisation.
My best weapon in the org is the tool skill that I can attain quietly and win over others and them with my hidden agenda of CFA.

My first day of implementation

I call this as a conineous improvement as compared to tommorow.... Today I did my best to be cool and composed and do my best on this only i did plenty of things good like week end 2 time bath and paying rent and not delaying it any further.. These are some of the good things how ever their where few bad patches that i had to face and failed in one... I failed to bear the saloon guy charged me of 10$ and faulty hair cut fealt like hitting him but cannot as it is not my place.... Any ways I had to smoke and I convey this to my wife also.................

However my wife is facing a bad day as BUBU is not sleeping and he does not want to stop his mischiefs that he is doing any ways I have to do my excercise and I should take him and relief my wife from him GHAN-GHAN as she being stressed from a long time would leave the home more stressed.... so let me handle that to now....


One more thing the land lady is comming to visit us at 3.30 Pm and I had paid the rent before only... SO this saves my face before her.... That is really good.....

One more thing i downloaded the FACLET code pie from internet yesterday night so i realised that there is not much as a application developer I can do on that front///So I need to more concentrate on the other aspect of development. SO today onwards I would be focussing more on JSF component and AJAX component and their runtime validation, and how do we switch from a JSF to a non JSF application so these are the stuff the application development.....


There is one more area that i need to put some time and effort like the stock picking if the stock fell from their record lows and I neeed to move my other cash into arbitrage funds....

Plan on paper

In my previous blog i said this process in continuous improvement , so I should not mind if these plan don't plan out at all. However if we don't continuously keep working in these area we would loose self respect and most important respect for our plan and strategy. So Strategy should and must work and effort should be placed to do it work.

This weeks plan:
1. TAT new song has to be written so that car and fish word are incorporated in the same.
Why : I don't want my kid to forget these words, it is important for me.
2. I must take TAT and his mom out for bugis
WHY: This is important as I m increasing my happy areas and also they would be roaming places not when the exams are near, but when exams are not near by.
3. Start coming in bicycle as it would improve the health condition and fitness, for this you need to buy a formal T shirt from BUGIS station.
Why: I don't want sick people from other team to comment or even look at me.
4. Get hair cut from pasaris looking shaby is not good for self moral. Sunday only.

5. Get a complete understanding of Facelet so that you have a upper hand.

6. From Sunday onwards i would start jogging. I would request my wife to join that also.

I think i need to work on various areas if I have to quiet smoking. First i need to be aware why and under what circustances do i smoke and how can i avoid those circustances and how can i convert those negative regions into positive reagions.

I am with an opinion that if we donot work on our drawbacks then it would back fire on us as big torpedo and we would be blown away by it.

What i m saying and how does it effect me as a person and mainly how it effect my smoking habit. Say for example , today i was going through the windows media center and I realised that I am not taking much photographs of my kid as we donot have a camera stand just for few SG$ my family is loosing so many moments of joy. As this joy is mportant as it nullify our sad moments when i need a pack of ciggs to come over them, if my joy zone is more then it would eventually mean my joy zone has been grown at the cost of my sad moments. Which is a good thing so how can i do it....

I feel this a contineous improvement and this needs self analysis. What i think is the major problem is that, I take things easy and then repent at the end of the work.. For example the work of PORTLET and WSRP finally some how I was able to do it but it costed me a great cost like had smoked a lot and LOGU and others laughed at me lot... Any ways I could have come over it if I would have worked on it from begining so proactive.

So these are the things that are expected from you,

1. Have a Plan in place.

2. Work on those plan.

3. Have a regular feed back on those plan.

4. Reevaluation of those plans

5. Regular feed back page must be there to update.

My Failure with Cigs

I was having a stroll with my wife in Pasaris, after our dinner in the food court... I saw a man with a scar in his face seems like a man suffering from cancer, i felt sorry for the man and felt misrable as I have been smoking for a long long time what makes me more misrable is that i have a family to feed and none of them in my family has a capacity to earn a decent living by their own. So i should and must leave long... because of this reason I told my wife that i am stressed out and I need a cigg to calm, she said is it needed can u not avoid it, i said i cannot and i smoked my cigg..

However while i was smoking i was talking to my wife and discussing about the illeffects of smoking in and around our family only. She started talking about his family and discussed how her uncles are suffering because of smoking....I said I am not those kind of people who smoke for no reason, i said i only smoked when i m provoked my some way, she suggested that self analysis is very smoothing and self relaxing... She recommended me to write diary so that i can jot down my experience and drain my bad energy and turn it into positive enerygy


So i have thought to keep writing my blog when ever and where ever possible most probably in future we would have internet all ways it would not be the case like we have to sit before a PC to connect to internet so I would be blogging all those feeling in this URL.....

As of now i am not able to share this blog with any one, but later it would be available for every one.